I’ve often found it hard explaining to people the difference between nerves and anxiety. For those of us in the know, there’s a huge difference between butterflies and the tingly feeling you get with nerves, and the crippling pain all over your body that anxiety likes to bring us. In all honesty, I’ve often found it difficult myself to distinguish between the two, until today.
I’ve been working on a high profile project work quite a substantial amount of money to the business I work for, and I’ve basically lead he whole thing from start to finish, apart from the presentations to the client themselves, this is often handled by others because of the issues I have with anxiety. Although I prefer it this way to take the pressure off, I feel disappointed that I’m not able to do things like this as it restricts me from not only excelling, but travelling the world within my role. So today, when the opportunity came up for me to present this round of ideas, I went for it!
The strange thing is that because I wanted to do it for me, I wasn’t anxious. Well, I was anxious but not ANXIOUS. I was nervous, I was worried I’d stumble etc but all of this is standard when it comes to presenting something like this, and surprisingly, I wasn’t phased.
I spent time preparing, looking through everything I needed, I dedicated my whole day to practicing what I’d say, how I’d say it and what I’d do.
When the time came, I was dreading it but excited at the same time. I knew I wanted to do it, I knew I deserve the opportunity and I was taking it. And take it I did! I presented, I presented it well and the client was over the moon with what they’re seeing. And I couldn’t be happier.
After, I was elated. I felt positive, I felt confident and for the first time in a long time I felt a sense of achievement. It felt brilliant.
Moral of the story? Something like this is really hard for me to do, but my outlook changed my reaction. Had I gone into this with fear and doubt I’d have without fail suffered from a panic attack. Instead I looked at it from a positive point of view, and knowing I wanted it meant my whole reaction was more positive.
It’s so easy to say, but this method for me will hopefully drive me forward into other challenges so I can prove to myself I am capable of doing it and being a normal human being! Woo hoo!